Sunday, September 29, 2013

Captain's Log, Day 40

I can't do this. Not alone. I have nobody to...to what? Help me? Comfort me? Tell me it's going to be OK? To breathe? I miss him, you know. He embodies what I want – what is Daddy. God this hurts. This is super hard!! I just don't think I can do it. I want so badly to just curl up into a ball and hide inside myself – and never come out. I want so badly to give up. I'm tired of fighting this pain so that I don't fully give into it...b/c I'm afraid what might/will happen if I do fully give into it.


(Originally written 09/15/13)

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