Captain's Log, Day 34

This morning's worship service was really good. Everyone who gave a testimony – almost – talked about unity – how that we (as a drama family) come together and just love on each other despite our different denominations (Bapti-Metho-Costals) and our different personalities and whether we're “normal” or not. One person read the lyrics of a song that said – or all I heard was “I belong.” “I am worthy.” That really got to me – spoke to me.

After lunch, I got the opportunity to really talk to Ms. Carole about my idea and desire to start a Christian-based support group for peeps who either have bipolar or are a caretaker of a person with bipolar, and about my most recent experiences and how I'm feeling right now (overwhelming guilt for what I've done.)

This year, a new part was added to my existing part. Last night I wasn't exactly sure how to play it. Today Carole told me that I should be more aggressive to get to Jesus since I was desperate – Jesus was my last hope for healing. So I stepped up my game on that tonight. OH. MY. WORD. Such a powerful thought of being “clean”! It was so overwhelming that I started to cry.

Tomorrow a bunch of us are headed up to the Waffle House and then to Ms. Carole's place to hang out, sing, whatever. As introverted as I've recently discovered myself to be, I'm really looking forward to it.

One final thought – Ms. Jan asked me to help w/the Drama Facebook page. That I know I can do.

Oh, another final thought – right before the drama, there were storm clouds coming to us. They then kinda split and went around us. As they did, a rainbow appeared. Then later (JP told me) that doves were flying around near the crosses/tomb/ascension areas.

(Originally written 09/01/13)